Happy Birthday, my little babies! I love you with all my heart! I can't believe three years have passed us by. Their birth was such a blur to me due to my own health at the time. I was in the hospital 6 days (3 in ICU), Shep was in the NICU 18 days and Wynn was in the NICU for 28 days. Leaving those babies in that hospital while I got to come home was absolutely awful. A mother's heart can't take being separated from her children. Not this mother, at least. I was so happy to be able to bring them home. When Shep came home I felt so torn. I was happy to have him with me but sad that Wynn was there without a mother and his brother. Shep was so sweet and such a good sleeper from the start. When Wynn came home I put him in the bed with me the first night and slept nose to nose with him so he could feel my breath and hope that he would feel bonded with me. I will never forget that night and smelling his breath as he slept. Scott and I tried for 4 years to get pregnant. It was a hard journey and I lost two babies in the process. But those little boys are more than worth the wait. I know many people who know why they were put on this Earth and what they feel like their contribution to the world is. Mine is to be a mother. I treasure it everyday. I don't enjoy it everyday but I am so thankful God made me a mother. I love you twinkies!
thirty-seven
10 years ago